ah, life lessons

Well, I'm beginning to think that my life is becoming one big book of life lessons. It seems like a year ago everything I ever knew, as now changed. Some might say that is bad, but i'm starting to see that its sort of a blessing. I think its incredibly ironic how everything you once believed in, you will spend hours and hours questioning. Since school has started I have had the world in my hands and nothing could go wrong, I though maybe all the bad in the world, decided it didn't want me. However, life had a way of waking me up from my fantasy, and let me tell you it brought me from up in the clouds to down on my knees. When you go through trauma, you begin to rethink everything in your life, you put up walls whether you like it or not. In the past three months, I have lost a friend to suicide, helped another one from suicide, and seen how people can truly break your heart and destroy your trust. Although, life has been rather stormy I have learned that your only has strong as the pain you're put through. When you feel like you can't bare any more pain, and you feel like the whole world has lost its way, you just got to stand tall because the world would kill to see you fall. The beauty about life is that you are 100% out of control, and your just along for the ride. Amazing as it is, i'm starting to see that pain is just a part of life we need to feel real, and that joy is the only reason we could go through it all in an instant. Life has a funny way of trying to teach you things, and after the past couple of months I can be the first to tell you that if you want the rainbow you got to put up with the rain. So, I guess what i'm really trying to say is, remember what really matters, let go of the hate, and learn that life is all about learning...